Last Known Record

Enough is enough.

1) Confidence. - When you talk to one person CONFIDENTIALLY, it's supposed stays that way.
2) I do give credit where it is due. But none of you are gonna believe me anyway.
3) Some people I have never tried to piss off. You guys have done nothing to me and I'm kinda hoping that the inverse is also true. If you are pissed, sorry, must be a spill effect.
4) I'm abandoning this weblog.

Goodnight folks....

Really now...

A note. Some of you have never offended me. This is not meant for you. None of you will care what I write here and dismiss it as the rantings of a "angsty potty mouth". Frankly. I'm just tired.

But seriously...

Time to explain a few truths.

Snide comments I can deal with. In fact, I expect them from you and will pretend to act extremely shocked. Professional courtesy though. One messed up ear but I can still hear you. Keep it quiet till I'm out of earshot. Even if you bust a rib doing so.

Yes. I am an arrogant son of a bitch. Yes. I am an asshole.
Deal with it.
I don't have to answer to you.

Oh, and before reaching for that comment panel or IM-ing your bestest best friend in the whole wide world (for the next 2 months anyhow) to continue bitching...

Don't act cute. You're all as damaged as I am.

Happy Fucking New Year!

They say that what you do when the year ends is what you will be doing for the rest of it. In that case, I'm pretty much in trouble.

Hasn't been a great year. But there are some things, some people I can be thankful for. People who helped made whatever little good there is in my year.

Nab, Trace and Ram who were there at the concert. My old friends, Heidi, Joy, KY, Anil... The people at school who I trust Sany, Gus, Candice, Jacky... New friends like Patty, Le Raine, Rachel, Siew Ling, Natalie, Sarah...

There are more. It's been a year...

I want my year to change. I didn't feel this year go by. Mostly because I kept having t struggle most days. Who has the time to step back?

I'd say next year will be better. Then again, I say that every year....

A Death in the Family

My uncle died today. ETD 0245 hours.

MCR 11 Dec!!!

I hate moshpits. Couple of wiseasses were shoving their way forward. I feared for my life. Now I can't feel my feet, my arms and back are killing me. BUT WHAT A FUCKING AWESOME CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!

Jokes

We spend time railing on people for what they say or do. No matter how much of a bad thing it may be, we become a judge. Even if the court is only in our eyes. But from where comes our right to play the high ground? What if we commit the same sins as the ones we condemn?

The joke's gone far enough. I am human. I deserve some sort of dignity.

I am not entirely humorless. I can take a joke. But when "Dorminic is a retard" jokes come every few minutes, even Larry King has changed his routine more.

You say a stiff comment is mean. But can this "meaness" be negated with a "just joking" behind it? Is it possible for me to negate it and pass it off as good natured ribbing because of us being "friends"?

Explain to me this concept.

Because I'm just tired.

Self-Defense

I don't think people like me happy.

Everytime I'm in a good mood, feeling positive about my tomorrow, I end up getting my ass kicked right back. Snarky people, that really ugly I told you so feeling. And when I get started with that, I end up opening up a really big can of worms.

Why does what I have done in the distant past come back to bite me? Is it so easy to assume the worst of me?

I'm sick of defending myself.