Back to Before

I'm reading Michael Jordan's biography. Hard not to see how there are so many similarities between him in 1995 and me now.

We are both men taken from our passions before our primes. Both of us wanting to do more but just unable to. Both our teams about to turn a corner and all we can do is to sit on the sidelines and die trying in other pastimes that remind us just how painfully human we are.

Difference is, he went back and won 3 more rings. I can never go back.

I've accepted it.

It hurts like hell and I still keep asking myself what might have been. I spend too many sleepless nights thinking about how so much of my life has closed itself to me, about how my life could possibly be over.

The only thing I can do now, is to go back to what was me. Math, Philosophy, Sports...

I learned my lessons and now, I need solace.

This boat has finally set sailed.