Lonesome

To tell you the truth, I hate posting personal stuff on my blog. What's the point of a diary when everyone can read it? Anything you say can and will be used against you. Why give them a paper trail then?

But this has to go out.

I'm sick of it. I'm sick of having to be a second class citizen to everyone. I'm tired to be the butt of all jokes. I'm sick of being the only person who has no credibility.

I know what it is like to be lonely. Sure, I've been all by myself all these years. They used to say that you can be lonely even if you are surrounded by people. Somehow I used to believe that I was above all of it. I didn't need anyone.

Now I feel more vulnerable than ever before. I'm all by myself and I hate it.

Even then, I will deal. But it will be nice to hope.

By the way, to the skinny kid with a big mouth? Don't get too smug. At least I know when I'm not wanted